Needless to say,

Life is Good

Super Great

What's the point anyway?

Unfinished

Oh the irony of the girl who stays with the guy who is the safe choice. The guy who may not treat her like a queen, yet she settles. She becomes accustomed to everything so that it begins to seem normal. But it isn't. It just isn't. Meanwhile, a match that is different yet just as perfect comes along, and she just brushes it off. She doesn't want to take the risk because she's thinking. Thinking. Fuck thinking. She thinks that she won't find someone like who she's got. She thinks there's no one else out there for her because it's been so long. This is all she's known. She thinks that this fool treats her like she's the only one for him. But she isn't. There's always something else. Someone else. But she stays. She knows it's scary out there. So let's just take the safe route. Why risk everything that is already established? Everything that's good and well? Stray away? She never strays.

She holds it down.
Until she finds her way.

Shame

Although I'm easily amused and intrigued, I get bored of things easily.

Things right now are sadly routine-like. I wake up at 7AM M-F to drop my brother off at school, come home, bring my sister to school, get ready for work or school, eat, go to work or school, study, hang out, pick the kids up, take the kids out for dinner, etc. Friday through Sunday always varies though, but those days basically consist of the following events: work, spending time with Godfrey, going to church, staying in, having alone time, watching movies, hanging out with Leah, attempting to spend time with my siblings but finding them spending time with their significant others, being bored.

You would think living life this way would be so easy, but it isn't. Not for me at least. I guess I want more for one. Just this once. I need a tease, a twist to my life, an event that's uncalled for, a new school, a new hobby, new friends, a new environment, a serendipitous encounter with someone new, something new. I guess that's what it is. I'm in need of something new.

My feet are off the ground.